Numb

I feel so numb
I call your name but you don`t come
and I know you never will again
I stood by you till the end
but I still blame myself
for not being able to help
I have no control over life and death
but when the doctor said you were gone
I thought he was wrong
but as time goes on
hopes of your return fade
I know you wouldn`t want to live this way
they ask me to pull the plug I give the okay
tears stream down my face as I watch you slip away
they said there was no chance of recovery
but still it was hard for me
to do the right thing
or even hear myself think
cause things got so mixed up it was hard to tell
right from wrong and heaven from hell